I am sorry, mom

Um. I seriously do not know what to say because i have been such a bad girl in the dinner table while i had my supper. Since i was too stressed out about the difficulty i suffer under the pressure of preparing for my grade eight piano exam, i told my mother what i had in my mind. I said to her about the conversation i had with the true painist, Flora, during my drawing class a few days ago. I was too depressed about how i could stuck in one place and could not move on. Obviously my mother wanted to push me to get the exam done so she was angry about my attitude. She thought i had the desire to put piano exam out of my mind. However i never had the intension of giving it up, in fact i really want to continue my path to become a real painist, although it is quite impossible to happen. I konw she was trying to help me out, but i just needed some time to think that through. I was kind of angry too since she misunderstood my whole meaning of this talk. I no on purposely told her to be quite. I was so upset and angry that i leashed out my anger that had hidden in my heart for some long. I know I had tears in my eyes and i was about to sob. We both became silent. Then my mother yelled out and said not to continue after this month. I rejected this idea, indeed i said i would continue until i have my grade 8 exam.

I seriously can not give up right now. I am a step away from my desinty, finish eight grades of piano exam. I have been working so hard to archieive this goal. I can not give it up like by this stone that goes on my way to my goal. While i take my shower, i say to myself that i should regain my determination in piano and practice hard again.

I am really sorry mom. I never mean to yell at you or anything like that. I am really sorry.